Life Lately: Don’t lose hope

 
 

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January 2013
 
 
 

Hey peeps! How have you guys been so far in the early days of 2013?

#WhatMadeMyDay Last time you check, I was absolutely late for a job interview with the company I really look forward to working for – company ABC. Well … I’m happy to say that this morning was my third interview … and at this point, we still don’t have a clear decision yet. In any case, I’m still hopeful for a chance to work with the team and make myself useful for the company in any way that I can.

So, I was two and a half hours early this morning.

 
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I know, I know. I sat down at the waiting room for practically two and a half hours, finishing Aaron Karo’s Ruminations of Twentysomething Life in a single breath. I stayed around for about two more hours for two rounds of interviews.

And I only slept for five hours the previous night.

Allow me to explain further in the CAREER section below.

P.S. This thing just arrived this morning.

 

My school said I'll expect my grad cert to arrive within 6 to 8 weeks after my last day of school. Since I only received it today, I guess that means 6 months of waiting until you're officially a college grad.

My school said I’ll expect my grad cert to arrive within 6 to 8 weeks after my last day of school. Since I only received it today, I guess that means 6 months of waiting to confirm that you are indeed a college grad.


 
 
 

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FAMILY: Back in 2012, I had better relationship with my parents than I do with them now. We have a huge distance between us because, well, like most parent-and-child conflict, my parents subconsciously want me to be a certain way. Every one has their own definition of “being a good girl” or “living a good life”, but I guess it’s harder for parents to accept that their children has a different way of thinking and doing things.

Times have changed. The way it has been in the last generation isn’t the way things are today.

I have an avoidance attachment style, and I’ve avoided talking with them for the past six months due to my decision to be, sooner or later, a career woman:

 
Dismissive–avoidant attachment
People with a dismissive style of avoidant attachment tend to agree with these statements: “I am comfortable without close emotional relationships.”, “It is very important to me to feel independent and self-sufficient”, and “I prefer not to depend on others or have others depend on me.” People with this attachment style desire a high level of independence. The desire for independence often appears as an attempt to avoid attachment altogether. They view themselves as self-sufficient and invulnerable to feelings associated with being closely attached to others. They often deny needing close relationships. Some may even view close relationships as relatively unimportant. Not surprisingly, they seek less intimacy with relationship partners, whom they often view less positively than they view themselves. Investigators commonly note the defensive character of this attachment style. People with a dismissive–avoidant attachment style tend to suppress and hide their feelings, and they tend to deal with rejection by distancing themselves from the sources of rejection (i.e., their relationship partners).

 

Though my parents have never considered they’ve spoiled me as a kid, I disagree. I think all parents do spoil their kids to a certain degree. Considering I’m the youngest kid and the only daughter, I always get what I want. But they probably didn’t realize that they’ve raised a kid who will never stop until she get what she wants, even without their help. What I don’t realize is … without their support, it’s really hard to get by.

I’m not rebelling like I did when I decided to move from Indiana to California six years ago. This time, they gave me choices. I just chose the hard way of going about my life – the one that I prefer to risk everything just to be happy in my definition of happiness over something easy that is their definition of being happy.

Bottom line, they’re disappointed that I’m taking a bigger risk to live an uncomfortable life. And I just hope that they learn to let go of the perfect situation and condition they want to put me in life so that they can worry less. Conversely, I strongly believe all of us only have limited control over the kind of situations and conditions we want to be in.

So, I just want to make my focus this year to rebuilding that intimacy I used to have with my parents, while at the same time convince them God-knows-how that their little one is growing up and that they have to be able to let me go. Contrary to what most mothers believe to be the best for their daughters, I don’t think marry-a-prince-and-live-happily-ever-after is the key to happiness.

I can imagine myself as a mother later on having my twentysomething daughter all grown-up and trusting that she is able to make her own decisions. In time I won’t have to schlep burdensome worries I don’t even have to carry in the first place.

 
 

LOVE: Stanley’s still dealing with my lack of confidence sometimes. It doesn’t happen quite often as last year, but sometimes I love to hurt myself so much that I hurt him. These outbreaks have dissipated slowly over the year, and I hope it will vanish completely by the end of this year.

Stanley renewed my faith in my own worth by whispering in my ears: You are a beautiful, smart, intelligent woman. I should put that on my bedroom wall.

Nonetheless, we are growing more intimate with each other :)

 
 

HEALTH: MORE SLEEP, LESS BREAD.

 
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CAREER: OK. Let’s continue.

So yesterday, I received a phone call early in the morning while I was still in bed. I picked up the phone in a slurred voice. Turns out it’s company ABC!!! After one month since my second interview … I didn’t thought they’d give me a call again. But they did.

The problem? I can’t remember what time I’m supposed to be there. 8:30am? 9:30am? 10:30am? I was half-awake. By the time I was brushing my teeth that morning, I completely forgot. I haven’t refill my phone bills and I couldn’t make a call to confirm with them.

So I woke up extra, extra early by going extra, extra early to bed. Like, at 9pm. Tossed and turned till 11:30pm where I fumed and said, “OK, I need to do something boring.”

I read my ancient history textbook for less than an hour and I’m sound asleep.

 

It's actually not that boring ... that's why I still keep it. (This is my textbook for an ancient history class I took while at Purdue)." width="2592" height="1936" class="size-full wp-image-12653" /> It's actually not that boring ... that's why I still keep it. (This is my textbook for an ancient history class I took while at Purdue)

It’s actually not that boring … that’s why I still keep it. (This is my textbook for an ancient history class I took while at Purdue).”

 

I woke up at 5am and a little before 6, I’m out of the house.

The road was obviously clear so I reached the building at 7. The janitor was cleaning the floor and looked up at me. “I have an interview … What time does the office open?” I asked.

“Usually people come between 8.30am to 9,” replied the janitor.

I’m like dang. OK, at least I’m not late. I can just wait.

Thing is, sitting for two and a half hours straight really makes your butt sore. I didn’t have my cup of tea this morning, so I was desperately trying to stay awake and alert.

In the end, I believe I didn’t come off as fresh and confident as I was during my first two interviews. Like I said, I went through two rounds of interviews. I think they’re trying to figure out a way to fit a definite position for me in the company.

While driving home, I realized I wasn’t as sure as I did after the previous interviews. As in whether I’ll get the job or not.

I can only hope for the best right now.

The first thing that I did after I put down that morning phone call was point up to God with a big smile, because I’ve been praying a lot for the past month that I’ve been interviewing with company ABC. He gives me confidence. I knew He wouldn’t let me down no matter how things will turn out, and that as long as I do the job according to His will, for His purposes, and for His service, I know I’ll be able to contribute a lot to company ABC while improving my writing skills at the same time.

 
 
 

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In a nutshell: My life is not as balanced as we last checked. You’re probably experiencing a lot more challenges, more confusions, and more difficulties in your life too.

It’s okay.

As long as you keep your faith and don’t lose hope, I assure you that everything will be okay.

 
 
 
 
 
 
 
 
 
 

Muchaluva,
Stace.

 

Life Lately: Balance

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December 2012

 
 
 

Okay. First of all, this post should’ve been published yesterday.

My boss is unrealistic. I, the employee, likes to procrastinate whenever she’s not around. I love to indulge myself with denials, and I keep reasoning that the boss is unreasonable, and that this post should be done on a later date in our content calendar. Unfortunately my boss is demanding. “You’re late,” she pursed her lips. She wants this late post up ASAP.

My boss is my employee.

Me = both the unruly laborer and the perfectionist.

It’s the inescapable principle to hold on to once you’re committed to do something. Getting myself serious about writing frequently on this blog, I had no other choice but stick myself to this principle over the past few weeks … and so far it’s been difficult to be your own boss. I can imagine how much worse it will be in the far future. You are required to summon every bit of your self-control – every. single. time. Bear with me as I’m keeping it up.

 
 
 

1 Corinthians 9:25 (New English Translation)

“Each competitor must exercise self-control in everything. They do it to receive a perishable crown, but we an imperishable one.”
 
 
 

#WhatMadeMyDay What a day! My whole morning was dedicated to dressing up, getting prepared, getting lost, and driving around Central Jakarta to locate the company I want to work for. I’m blessed as I’ve been invited for an interview invitation from the company.

I worked up the courage to drive all by myself and deal with all the required and supporting documents alone (usually I have the luxury of drivers and housemaids to help around… like most middle-to-upper class Indonesians). I woke up at 6 in the morning when my interview was scheduled at 9:30am. I can’t tolerate tardiness but today I accepted the fact that there are a lot of things that are beyond our control too. I may have power to drive the car and command its directions; but I can’t control the traffic (obviously).

I made a total of three wrong turns throughout my two-and-a-half-hour car ride finding the right way to the location. I called them about three times to let them know that a) I’m lost, b) I might be late, and c) I was late.

I was frantic the whole time in the car. Couldn’t really think properly as I had a really big temptation to let go of my bladder right there in the driver’s seat. Thank God it didn’t happen.

Tonight I’ll be spending quality time with Stanley to just work out together and eat a simple dinner around the neighborhood. Gotta keep that stamina up for this Sunday at the Alam Sutera 5-mile Road Race

 
 
 

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FAMILY: My mother will not be here in Jakarta with me until next week. She’s on vacation in Harbin, China. My father is seldom at home, as usual. He’s either working, making money, or playing golf. But I believe my prayers will keep my mother safe and sound throughout her trip. When she left I thought it’ll be great to have the house all for myself – but soon realized that it’s never true.

I’ve been alone in the house frequently since I was 5 or 6, under the care of loyal housemaids and plenty of mosquitoes. Those were the times when my parents were still speaking to each other and travel around the world all the time. At that age my brothers were already in Singapore.

Anyway, I still don’t have the courage to talk to my parents about my long-term career plans… Well, actually I did. But, as always, my mom wants it her way while my dad remains skeptical. No worries. I’ve done many things behind their backs and proven that I could make them even prouder my way.

One ringing example is my application to the Academy of Art University – a decision to transfer from Purdue University and live alone in another city (without living under the constant eye of my elder brothers). Yes, it led me to a deep depression to have no one I can truly depend on, but when I asked them on my graduation whether I’ve made the right decision to move, my mother replied:

“If you stayed at Purdue, you could’ve graduated two years ago.”

My father: “…”

… as usual. The marriage  between could-have-been-better attitude and the indifference. Like a natural clash between oil and water. But hey, I know my role. I’m the glue. With superglues, you can stick anything together.

 
 

LOVE: Love is doing great. Love my boyfriend. Hate my boyfriend. Obsessed with my boyfriend more than I used to obsess over celebrities. He never knew this, but at times the motivating factor for me to keep improving myself is the little thing called fear vibrating inside of me. Thoughts like he might lose interest in me, stop loving me, and one day leave me. Then again, I think of the perfect man who loves me so much he gave his life for me – and that fear quietens.

 
 

HEALTH: Good and not good. In a way, I feel extremely lucky to eat some 2,000 to 3,000 calories a day and still unintentionally lose weight. I’m just not happy for the fact that these days, I’m fussing about my freelance projects and my future plans for this blog so much that I stuffed myself with biscuits and chocolates that hurt my throat. I noticed I’m sleeping lesser and later. I keep having dry throats in the morning. I don’t feel good eating junk food.

A few weeks ago I didn’t have dark chocolates like I always have in the house. We usually have milk chocolate too, which I don’t like (worst for me is still white chocolate), as you may already know that I despise anything too sweet. But I was severely, severely craving my daily chocolate servings that I couldn’t help but reduce myself to the saccharine rushes coming from those ultra-sweet milk chocolate bars.

On the very next day, I got sick.

Guess I have to accept that my body is really sensitive. It responded the same way when I ate lamb chops some years ago.

 
 

CAREER: As I mentioned, I went for an interview this morning. I was really blessed that company ABC wasn’t as difficult a character as my boss (the inner perfectionist). Last week, I also had an interview with company PQR. The other week, I was also interviewed at company XYZ. There’s also company DEF that I’ve just applied days ago. Out of all these companies there is only one of them that I sincerely want to work for: Company ABC.

I recall when I just came back to Jakarta months ago, I was extremely selective during my job-hunting process, as if I’m the one looking to hire instead of the other way around. I only applied to a limited number of companies and only wanted to do certain jobs. A month later, the big message comes down to this: YOU CAN’T ALWAYS GET WHAT YOU WANT, much like you can’t control everything in your life.

So I had my previous job. Then I became more flexible now as I keep searching for jobs.

Initially I wanted to jump right in to the entrepreneurial world after leaving my previous job, but realized I still need time for more reflective thinking and go on self-discovery journeys. After all, as Joyce Meyer said, “we are not fit to be in authority until we know how to come under authority,” right?

Throughout the job-hunting process I keep asking myself: “Why do I want to work for somebody else?” And Meyer’s wisdom was the answer. However, up to this day, I don’t think I can work for just anybody. Any prospective employee has his or her personal rights to choose the companies they want to work for (duh). Eventually an employee will choose the company that consistently practices integrity and provides quality products and/or services for their clients and/or customers.

Company ABC had always been in my mind since before I left San Francisco. Just like any kind of relationship, customer trust is earned when the customer has associated him/herself with the company’s products and services for so long. Each time I consume these offerings, I’m satisfied and feel like I can’t wait for the next time I’ll be consuming their offering. Quality products and services are evergreen – I’ve trusted company ABC’s offerings for so long now that I feel I have to give back something to the consistent satisfaction I get out of their hard work. It’s the least you can do as a loyal customer.

 
 
 

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To sum it all up: Everything looks pretty balanced right now. Even though my boss would’ve graded a B- on each aspect of her employee’s life. But I’d rather have straight just-pass grades rather than three-subject As and one-subject graded with big fat F.

Because in the end, it’s all about balance.

 
 
 
 
 
 
 
 

Muchaluva,
Stace.

 

Life Lately: Obedience

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November 2012

 
 
 


#WhatMadeMyDay 
I had a pleasant surprise this morning that got me thinking a lot through the day. As I was eating my breakfast, my current domestic helper knocked on my door and told me that someone’s downstairs looking for “Yin.”

The only people who call me by that name are the people within my family and close relatives. I was very curious and immediately went downstairs to the living room. Turns out – it was my old domestic helper, the one who’s been looking after me since I was age 2 up till 8 – that’s 6 full years of care-taking, and now it’s been about 14 years since we last saw each other.

She’s very small, and seems so much older than I remember. She speaks gentler in speech but so much stronger in spirit. Maybe it was just me who’s growing a lot taller over these years. Nevertheless, it was nice to hear that you’ve got someone who’s been dreaming, literally dreaming, to meet you one day for the past 6 years. She put up a picture of me when I was so young on her wall, and I recall those nights when she held my hand whenever I’m about to sleep.

Whenever I’m unhappy about everything that my mother does or does not do, things like breaking little promises and forcing me to do things I don’t want to do, she had always been the one there to listen to my vents, scold me for not being a good child, and teach me how to remain obedient at all times.

Whenever my mother’s not around, she would take my brothers and I to go outside and play. She said she couldn’t bear to see us stay inside the house all the time. Whenever Sailor Moon’s on TV, she said I would sit down quietly to watch from start to end, then draw the characters on whatever surface I see. I sketched a lot on all kinds of notebooks and whitepapers, and I distinctly remember the time when my parents got really mad me for using my fingernails to scratch all our living-room furnitures to make out a Sailor Moon figure.

She has taught me the most important (and the most difficult) lesson of all: Obedience.

The heck with all that rules-are-meant-to-be-broken philosophy. I still am an advocate when it comes to following your heart, and sometimes they don’t align with those rules. In the long run, I learned the hard way that rules are (most of the time) meant to be there for us to follow. It’s a guidance so you won’t get lost along the way.

It doesn’t feel good to be lost. Like a left-out sheep separated from her shepherd.

 
 

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FAMILY: We’re slowly getting better. It takes time to heal a longstanding turmoil that has prevailed for the past 20+ years, but I still believe that I can help.

As a psychologist would say – you don’t get to choose your parents. In fact, I believe that each one of us chose the parents we have. There’s a reason behind every situation and condition God puts us in. It’s a choice to remain helpless. It’s also a choice for you to learn, change, grow, and expand.

The first step for me is a genuine willingness to change (with lots of pain and tears and finally taking the thought of suicide out of my mind), but it takes a lot of effort to obey all those rules set up around me throughout my life. Nevertheless, I’ve managed to successfully set up that dinner date for my parents and I to sit together with Stanley. It was a progress for my dad to speak up more – being the reserved guy that he is. By now, it’s easy for my mom and Stanley to converse comfortably – even sometimes better than the way my mother and I communicate these days. But I still have trust. I believe in reuniting once again despite all differences. The flesh and blood that I’ve became today came out of my parents, and ever part of me is destined to put back their marriage into full circle.

I know it’s none of my business, it’s theirs. But they matter to me because they are my parents, and all their life, they’ve been giving me love.

 
 
 


LOVE:
Above all, my love life is becoming stronger than ever. We were on the brink of making the most regretful decision of our lives last month. It was extremely painful for the both of us, but I won’t go into the details for privacy reasons.

He was filled with emotions. He couldn’t control his anger while bearing the pain I’ve caused him. He turned around to become 100% different than his usual temperament – the calm and collected person he’s always been. I, on the other hand, couldn’t go on my days without hating myself for releasing my negative thoughts and not being the person I’m expected to be – at home, at work, at my own ideals, and at my own standards with relation to him. When you’ve set up such a high standard for every part of your life, you forget that you haven’t move a single step from point zero (and yet you’re complaining about everything).

All those negative feelings I’ve expressed in his presence – anger, jealousy, pride, greed, you name it – they don’t hurt just myself any longer but has now affected him too. It’s extremely painful for the both of us, I can even still feel the hurt on my chest as I’m writing this.

But one important theory I’ve always known, though have not practiced since recently, is this: Love is not a feeling – it’s an action.

Love is a set of decisions you make on which you commit yourself to serving others. By others it’s not just your other half; it’s also your family, your relatives, friends, and even strangers.

Love works in surprising ways. It’s (extremely) challenging to take into practice. But if you obey the “rules”, challenge yourself, welcome changes and is willing to grow, love can conquer everything.

Love is, in fact, the most powerful force of all.

“I just think you’re like a lost child,” said my baby. It’s then that I realized it’s true – for all my life living as a rebellious horse, I kept running away from society’s strict definitions of what’s right and what’s wrong. I believe there’s more to life than just staying obedient in one place and settle down there. Eventually, everybody has to settle down – even horses have meadows they always run back to. They know that once they get lost and run into the wilderness, humans will attack them.

It’s a dangerous world out there.

 
 
 


HEALTH:
I’m gaining the weight I’ve lost unhealthily over the past few weeks or so. I look better and fresher, as people around me have seen. I’m still maintaining my regular regimen of eating healthy and exercising regularly, but the bad habit I’ve picked up in my previous job (yes, I’ve stopped working at the moment) still lingered for some reason. That principle of “work like there’s no tomorrow” is still sacrificing quality sleep for me.

I am a morning person, and I continuously wake up at 7am from the day I first landed here in Jakarta up till I work at my previous place (which then I’ve set my alarm earlier to 5:58am). My goal is to keep that 7am habit for the long haul.

I find that waking up late sets you up for a less productive day. You have less energy than you do if you habitually wake up with the sunrise.

 
 
 


CAREER:
I’m slowly changing my priorities in life. From birth till recently, if you ask me what’s the one thing I want to achieve in life, I’ll answer: Ambition.

I’m still ambitious, trying to cram everything into my head all the things I have to know in this knowledge-based economy we’re now living in. I believe it’s important for all kinds of  writers, whether your passion leans toward fiction or nonfiction, to be (and stay) in the know. There’s a huge amount of data published everyday, books and ebooks waiting to be released, tons of new blogs registered, and so much more materials sitting quietly for us to consume. Over the time, I came to learn that it’s much wiser to follow people who produce quality content (aka opinions you trust) rather than reading up every scraps of the material you are researching or just curious about. It saves you time, optimizes your energy, and prevents you from cramming up a lot of crap into your brain.

Honestly, the most difficult part for me is to remain aware that I have a mind on my own. The more people you consult to, the more confused you will become. Always have a goal in mind, keep yourself focused, and get help on wherever is fitting for your goal. Just as I’ve learned, every successful person asks for help – but most don’t tell you that it’s equally important to ask from the right people.

In a nutshell: Ambition is good. Stand firm and seek help when you need it. But if it’s riskier than it is beneficial for you, cut it out and move on.
 
 

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She, my domestic helper, have exchanged numbers with me. I respect her for teaching me everything that I need to know from the moment I met her. She has faced much, much more challenging turmoils in life than I have (obviously), according to the 4-5 hours of listening I’ve done this morning. Who cares if she doesn’t have the formal credentials to jump into the working world – she did it anyway.

Always nice to have a figure to look up to in life.

 
 
 
 
 
 
 

Muchaluva,

Stace.

 

Think you don’t have anyone you can lean on to?

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November 2012
 

 

 

I was breathing out a heavy sigh coming out of my afternoon shower. Sitting down on my desk chair, I run through my head all the things I have to do today. Suddenly, my BlackBerry lighted up.

“Have you received my e-mail?” he asked.

#WhatMadeMyDay
 

 

 

A tiny tear trickled down my eye.

A smile also appeared, mirroring the little cute elephants on these pictures.

“:) Yes,” I replied.

 

 

Thanks baby :D

 

 

Just the gentle reminder everyone needs to get through the day!

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

Muchaluva,
Stace

 

Fitness Journal: Second race running with my perfect 10

 

Apparently chip timing was not provided. My Nano recorded the whole distance as 11.9 km, ran the distance in 1:20:49 hour, at a 10’56″ / mi pace.

Well? During the race, I didn’t care as much about how fast or slow I was going, as I usually do (the more appropriate word would be “as I usually obsess about”).

I just wanted to enjoy it.

Which I did.

 

Recognize us here?

 

Despite Jakarta’s arid lands, unthinkable humidity, heavily polluted air, the gray skies and especially the blazing sun, we were all smiles after the race :)

Personally for us, the distance is a place where we can totally let go of our emotions (with enough conscience to run 6.2 miles, of course). Throughout the week he’s been quite stressed, and this morning was a huge chance to exhaust every bit of fume that’s kept inside for days now.

For me, I finally learned to smile as I run :)

 

Thanks @JonyYuwono for the snapshot!

 

For someone as negative as I am, this morning was simply a joy to watch really, really old people running beside me as I was witnessing the same spirit they have also working in me. I love watching everyone around me trying their very best to control their breathing – it’s like they’re about to achieve something big in their lives, and all they wanted to do was break through any obstacles preventing them from reaching their goals.

Case in point – I like spying on people.

A few days ago, I also dedicated some time to set up a playlist I named “Power songs”. They kept me going and made my heart sing.

 

  • Live Forever - Ferry Corsten feat. Aruna
  • Feels So Good (Tristan Garner Remix) - Armin van Buuren feat. Nadia Ali
  • Acting Crazy (Tom Fall Remix) - TyDi feat. Sarah Howells
  • Be Your Sound - Cosmic Gate feat. Emma Hewitt
  • Every Other Way - BT feat. Jes
  • My Saving Grace - ATB feat. Aruna
  • Domino (Myon & Shane 54 Club Mix) - Jessie J
  • All Around You - Cosmic Gate feat. Myon & Shane 54 and Aruna
  • Promises (Myon & Shane 54 Summer of Love Mix) - Andain
  • Get Up And Go - Diego Donati & Franco Amato feat. Dani Vasile
  • Let Go (Nic Chagall Remix) - Mark Eteson feat. Aruna
  • This Moment - Nic Chagall
  • On A Good Day - OceanLab
  • Irufushi (Ashley Wallbridge Remix) - Super8 & Tab
  • Hold On To Me - Armin van Buuren feat. Audrey Gallagher
  • You Never Said (Dash Berlin Mix) - Cerf, Mitiska, & Jaren
  • Strangers We’ve Become - Arnej feat. Josie
  • Not Enough Time (Club Mix) - Cosmic Gate feat. Emma Hewitt
  • Perfect Sky - DJ Julian Vincent

 

Say yes to a good heart and a healthy life! If you can walk a few steps, be grateful. If you can jog a few miles, be grateful. If you can run fast and strong, be grateful. If you can finish a marathon or other distances, be very, very grateful.

Because those legs were meant to test the faith and show the real strength of a human heart.

 

 

 

 

 

 

Take care!

Muchaluva,
Stace

A peek at his diary!

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October 2012
 
 
 

He asked me to check my e-mail. Turns out, I’ve received a pleasant surprise!

He’s making a diary with his new gadget (the Galaxy Note 2). Seeing this little gift, I can’t help but smile :D

#WhatMadeMyDay
 


 
 
 

“Love is loyalty, honesty, and happiness regardless of any condition.”

“Behind a man’s success is a woman who continues to give him support using the power of love.”

 
 
 

Thank you, love <3 (and many thanks to @KamusCewek for making my man understand us women better :p)

I had a stroke of inspiration too today to write him a very simple poem, which I sent through BBM (and also before I found out about this diary entry). I hope it inspires anyone who’s reading this blog entry too :)
 
 
 

If there’s one thing

ahead that looks promising

is my journey of learning

to receive your love.

 

With your perfecting,

improving that lovin’ feeling,

with joy you got me thinking,

“God, I am loved.”

 

Hope you are smiling.

 
 
 

Today, I learned that it’s important to tell the one you love that you love them. While you’re at it, remember to smile :)
 
 
 
 
 
 
 
 
 
Muchaluva,
Stace