It’s been a while, Plinky.
Today’s a biggie and ultra-touchy subject: “Tell us something most people probably don’t know about you.”
Well, there is one thing that I know most people have no clue about me.
I have a friggin’ low self-esteem – probably the most insecure person you’ll ever know. Ever.
People don’t know that because it’s not important to know. I don’t feel it’s important for anyone to know, because I don’t think anybody would think I am someone important to know unless I’ve done something big and positive to this world somehow.
I fake my confidence a lot, especially when I want to get others to speak up. Most of the time, by keeping quiet before someone gives me the permission to speak, I benefit from knowing what people want.
I know what people want. Most of the time, they just want another confirmation that their own opinion is true.
People LOVE being approved. So do I – through my writing.
Even if I get chatty, there are only two reasons for it: a) I like to please you, or b) I genuinely don’t care about you.
I like to please you because I don’t see myself worthy enough to be able to listen to your brilliant ideas. I talk a lot to make fun of myself so that you feel comfortable talking to me about your brilliant ideas.
But when I genuinely don’t care about you, I make noise just to fill the empty space. I chat just to make you feel cared. Most people talk because they want a good ear to hear them out, and I know how it feels. I don’t want to make people feel the same way, so I make noise, and just so you know, every writer is a listener.
On the other hand …
I practice good posture, I practice proven techniques to carry myself well, I always try to speak up with a clear voice, and I always make sure my message is clear. I never write for the sake of writing – and any good writer knows that good writing comes from a voice that genuinely have something to say.
By that, people always think I have confidence.
So, I would prefer others not knowing what I look like in person other than my writing, which is always written with good intent, and likewise, I prefer people who see me as a pretty little dumbo in real life continue to think I’m a pretty little dumbo.
That way, I can always know the real person behind those blinds.