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Currently revisiting: The Sacred History + The Secret History of the World



The Sacred History by Jonathan Black, page 176

“Elijah, the Buddha, Socrates and Apollonius brought spiritual awareness and understanding to the world – the knowledge that we are all interconnected, that we should show compassion to every living thing, that we must play our part in the world’s evolving. They all knew on some level what was happening and what had to happen, but it was Jesus Christ who brought the power that made it happen. He had the power to turn history on its hinges. Elijah, Buddha, Pythagoras brought faith and hope, but Jesus Christ brought love.




The Secret History of the World by Mark Booth, page 21

“To today’s most advanced thinkers, academics like Richard Dawkins, the Charles Simony Professor of the Public Understanding of Science at Oxford, and other militant materialists who regulate and maintain the scientific world-view, the mind of God’ is no better than the idea of a white-haired old man up above the clouds. It is the same mistake, they say, that children and primitive tribes make when they assume God must be like them – the anthropomorphic fallacy. Even if we allowed that God might conceivably exist, they say, why on earth should ‘He’ be like us? Why should ‘His’ mind be in any way like ours?

The fact is that they’re right. Of course there is no reason at all … unless it’s the other way round. In other words, the only reason why God’s mind might be like ours is if ours was made to be like His – that is, if God made us in His image.





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You are not your own.


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The image on the mirror is ugly.

it has small eyes, wide nose, thin lips, thin hair, flat chest, and wide hips. I wish its skin’s a bit fairer, its hair’s a little fluffier, its lips much fatter, its eyes bigger, its nose much straighter, that it’s way bustier than it is, that it’s got slightly longer legs, and just a little bit taller.

I also wish it’s more mature, more patient, much more gentle, much, much slower to anger, thinks way less about things than it does now, way less anxious than it is now, and much more loving, caring, and forgiving to others.

“Then, you wouldn’t be your own image,” the mirror said. “If all your wishes come true, you wouldn’t be God-send. You’d be others-manipulated, conventions-regulated, and pretty much everything else other than your own person.

I froze for a moment. I stared at the image again.

True, that image is not me. I was never my own to begin with, and I should be stepping away from this deception.

I stepped back from the mirror1, and I remember the verse.

That’s when I know, I am beautiful. In every way that I already am.


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  1. James 1:22-25 []
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What’s not popular: A sense of belonging + a culture of gratitude


Everyone loves the ESFP gal (what in the world is an ESFP?). She’s the ideal blogger who doesn’t care much about what people think about her rants and raves and controversial views about the most debatable topics. For one thing, these gals have very thick skin, and I cannot imagine how many hate mails they receive on a daily basis. But then, that’s where the cash comes in; because they’ve gotten past the whole daring-to-be-yourself, I-don’t-care-what-you-think phase, it doesn’t take them long to master this power that I’ve envied since forever – the power to relate to others.

From time to time, I still fall back into self-pity and juggle between the whole fake-confidence thing and total hermit, which I’m fully aware alienates people and leaves them with a lot of confusion. So it’s no wonder I was never a popular kid at school – as much as I wanted to belong to one of the popular cliques, it doesn’t come naturally to play the dearest, always-perfect, happy-go-lucky social butterfly. I’ve tried, hard. Maybe a little too much. I’ve even compromised my personal core values several times just to “belong”, then hated myself later on. As time goes by, I just feel exhausted by all the energy I have to put in in order to build this mask, but even more exhausted from all the potential friendships I’ve lost because of my fakery.

But I’m done with trying. The difference today is I have Jesus – the one integer that puts every piece of me back into whole, the loving-kindness who mercifully preserves me from the different facets of my evil mask; the impartial judge who took my death sentence, died in my place, and went through all the trouble of the slow and painful crucifixion process, just to relate to me (and you, btw). There’s nothing in the world I can repay him for letting me know I belong to him just the way I am.


Spread the love, not your soul

I’ve always thought you have to be a certain definition of perfect in order to belong to a clique, and if you want to belong to another clique you have to fit yourself into that particular clique’s definition of perfect, and so on and so forth. At one point, I’ve spread myself too thin that I didn’t know who I was anymore. Maybe an expired butter that wishes it’s Nutella. But many of you longtime readers know I’ve suffered from depression and didn’t have my period for 17 months when I was 21. Any human can eventually withdraw from the world when they’ve given “everything” to the whole world, but gets nothing in return. Put simply, what I’ve learned from is that dark period of my past is that truly giving your all doesn’t involve selling your soul to the devil – it’s giving everything you’ve got because you’ve already got all that you need.

nutella-01Translated into blogging, this is why it’s never 100% for-profit for me. If I did, I would’ve hand-picked a niche a long time ago, stuck myself to that, constantly grinding content within that niche, and one day become just another “expert” on that topic till the end of my life. Essentially, I know I’ll become a slave to it. There are so many things I count as blessings in my life that I cannot contain into boxes, and when I’m older, I want to recount everything just so looking back would be a rewarding experience for my kids, my grandkids, and myself. You already know how much of a worrier I am, which was probably why God sent such a positive person to become my life partner1, and so to really count through my little joys is important to me.

There was a time when I had a full agenda of content prepared to be read and loved and go viral on my editorial calendar, but it didn’t work out. The more I wanted to be “popular”, the less grateful I actually become toward the blog and as a person. That period did help me to recognize the kind of content I no longer want to put out for the long haul, but the whole process was mentally and physically draining – all I could think about was the pressure to get something out, things like I have to gain traffic, I have to convert, I have to create buzz. I know, pretty soul-crushing if not, de-humanizing.


A little difference is still a difference

We humans are not moved by reason alone – we’re moved by emotion. The last thing I want is creating singular reasons why people would want to come find me. What I want is pure connection with you, one-on-one, on non-conditional contexts so we hit it off, it can turn into real friendship. Though I’ve pigeonholed my topics now to Wellness, Beauty, and Leisure for easier reading (and the extra fun stuff that doesn’t belong to the 3), I still want to actively relate to you in the realest, rawest way as I’m doing now with this kind of free-flowing post. The kind of posts that doesn’t fit into any category.

In the same vein, before I have the kind of relationship I have with him now, I was practically crushing my soul into pieces and fitting them into neat boxes that I can blend into pre-existing cultures, niches, cliques – whatever you want to call it. Now, what I understand as part of my co-creating walk on earth with God, at least in my line of work with the blog, is that we’re supposed to be cultivating cultures instead of letting pre-existing cultures limit you.

I may not be the first blogger you look for if you want to know about the latest trend or fad or buzz, or the first platform you look to sell your products and/or services when you have zero marketing budget in your wallet, but this is the place for everything I love and that I’m grateful for in my life, and my hope is going through it inspires you to do the same. More important than that, I want to connect with you on a personal level, as with a friend who probably thinks through everything too much (thus the loooooong posts you see a lot), but the first that came to mind when you think of someone you can relate with, in the truest sense of the word. I believe it was Mahatma Gandhi who once said that everything that you do in life will be insignificant, but it’s very important that you do it. Any blogger will tell you that taking and editing pictures take more work than you think, and I honestly don’t enjoy it as much as I write. But for reasons I don’t know why, God is using me to keep this blog running all these years – probably because He knows I’m pretty consistent with my content (though obviously not so much with staying on topic). But it’s because he loved me first, and persistently so, that I’m eternally grateful for all that He does in my life.


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How to be perfect


This one’s dedicated to the fellow idealists and believers. All verses are quoted from the English Standard Version (ESV) bible. I find them a sufficient reminder for life of what’s truly perfect and what’s not. Hope you find these verses helpful too.


1. My little children, I am writing these things to you so that you may not sin. But if anyone does sin, we have an advocate with the Father, Jesus Christ the righteous. He is the propitiation for our sins, and not for ours only but also for the sins of the whole world. (1 John 21:1-2)

2. Do you not know that if you present yourselves to anyone as obedient slaves, you are slaves of the one whom you obey, either of sin, which leads to death, or of obedience, which leads to righteousness? (Roman 6:16)

3. Then King Nebuchadnezzar was astonished and rose up in haste. He declared to his counselors, “Did we not cast three men bound into the fire?” They answered and said to the king, “True, O king.” He answered and said, “But I see four men unbound, walking in the midst of the fire, and they are not hurt; and the appearance of the fourth is like a son of the gods.”

Then Nebuchadnezzar came near to the door of the burning fiery furnace; he declared,“Shadrach, Meshach, and Abednego, servants of the Most High God, come out, and come here!” Then Shadrach, Meshach, and Abednego came out from the fire. And thesatraps, the prefects, the governors, and the king’s counselors gathered together and saw that the fire had not had any power over the bodies of those men. (Daniel 3:24-27)

4. But whatever gain I had, I counted as loss for the sake of Christ. Indeed, I count everything as loss because of the surpassing worth of knowing Christ Jesus my Lord. For his sake I have suffered the loss of all things and count them as rubbish, in order that I may gain Christ and be found in him, not having a righteousness of my own that comes from the law, but that which comes through faith in Christ, the righteousness from God that depends on faith— that I may know him and the power of his resurrection, and may share his sufferings, becoming like him in his death, that by any means possible I may attain the resurrection from the dead.

Not that I have already obtained this or am already perfect, but I press on to make it my own, because Christ Jesus has made me his own.

Brothers, I do not consider that I have made it my own. But one thing I do: forgetting what lies behind and straining forward to what lies ahead, I press on toward the goal for the prize of the upward call of God in Christ Jesus. (Philippians 3:7-14)

5. For by grace you have been saved through faith. And this is not your own doing; it is the gift of God, not a result of works, so that no one may boast. (Ephesians 2:8-9)

6. Jesus said to him, “If you would be perfect, go, sell what you possess and give to the poor, and you will have treasure in heaven; and come, follow me.” (Matthew 19:21)

7. I appeal to you therefore, brothers, by the mercies of God, to present your bodies as a living sacrifice, holy and acceptable to God, which is your spiritual worship. Do not be conformed to this world, but be transformed by the renewal of your mind, that by testing you may discern what is the will of God, what is good and acceptable and perfect. (Romans 12:1-2)

8. Rejoice always, pray without ceasing, give thanks in all circumstances; for this is the will of God in Christ Jesus for you. Do not quench the Spirit. Do not despise prophecies, but test everything; hold fast what is good. Abstain from every form of evil. 

Now may the God of peace himself sanctify you completely, and may your whole spirit and soul and body be kept blameless at the coming of our Lord Jesus Christ. (1 Thessalonians 5:16-23)

9. Count it all joy, my brothers, when you meet trials of various kinds, for you know that the testing of your faith produces steadfastness. And let steadfastness have its full effect, that you may be perfect and complete, lacking in nothing. (James 1:2-4)

10. So God created man in his own image, in the image of God he created him; male and female he created them. (Genesis 1:27)

11. How can a young man keep his ways pure? By guarding it according to your word. With my whole heart I seek you; let me not wander from your commandments! (Psalms 119:9-10)

12. So whoever knows the right thing to do and fails to do it, for him it is sin. (James 4:17)

13. For if we go on sinning deliberately after receiving the knowledge of the truth, there no longer remains a sacrifice for sins, but a fearful expectation of judgment, and a fury of fire that will consume the adversaries. (Hebrews 10:26-27)

14. There is no fear in love, but perfect love casts out fear. For fear has to do with punishment, and whoever fears has not been perfected in love. (1 John 4:18)

15. And by this we know that we have come to know him, if we keep his commandments. Whoever says “I know him” but does not keep his commandments is a liar, and the truth is not in him, but whoever keeps his word, in him truly the love of God is perfected. By this we may know that we are in him: whoever says he abides in him ought to walk in the same way in which he walked. (1 John 21:3-6)

16. “You have heard that it was said, ‘You shall love your neighbor and hate your enemy.’ But I say to you, Love your enemies and pray for those who persecute you, so that you may be sons of your Father who is in heaven. For he makes his sun rise on the evil and on the good, and sends rain on the just and on the unjust. For if you love those who love you, what reward do you have? Do not even the tax collectors do the same? And if you greet only your brothers, what more are you doing than others? Do not even the Gentiles do the same?

You therefore must be perfect, as your heavenly Father is perfect. (Matthew 5:43-48)


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Drawing you near me.


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Whenever I draw you, I get to know you a little bit more. Every fur, every detail, every move you make, I love watching you just being you. I want you to experience this life as fully as you can, this life I’ve created especially for you. This feeling inside me I can hardly contain just for myself – I just had to share you to the world.

Each time I draw you near, you delight me in your ways. You make me smile, your cuteness beyond belief. Your snout and your cheeks and your wobbly limbs – I can’t get them out of my head. Never for a second I doubt that you exist and very much alive, a figment of my imagination coming to life.

My world is beautiful because of you. But it’s also a big one where you can get lost easily. My hope is for you not to wander too far from me1, and I’m sorry that sometimes I’m too busy to play with you. I may be your creator, but I am only human. Not God, never will be.

So don’t ever let go of my hand, little one2. Because you are the reason I draw.

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  1. Hebrews 7:19 []
  2. 1 John 2:1 []
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How to be happy and healthy for life

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When you peel the layers of a person, it just comes down to skin, flesh, and bones. At least, this is what most people would agree.

We often forget that further still, right underneath our rib cage, there is the beating heart, and further beyond the heart seats the soul.

Considering the skin is the largest organ in the human body, it’s easy to think that it’s everything. Our looks, our image, our reputation. People go crazy these days, doing everything they can to make their skin tight and appear “right” and inject artifices with all their might, but they still perish. What happens to the flesh? It lusts after a particular appearance and envies those particulars of others. While it’s busy lusting and envying and greedily hauling the latest technologies to operate their skin, the flesh loses its density over time, as constant as gravity pulls, and all these sagging mass won’t be able to support itself with weak, drying bones.

All the while, everything beyond the heart is neglected. People would nod in agreement with the adage, the heart is fragile. But you know what’s even more fragile? These layers above it that’s supposed to protect it: Our bones, our flesh, our skin. It’s one big vessel that withers with age, and someday, layer by layer, it will turn back into dust.

The soul, on the other hand, is eternal. Where it may go after the rest of you died is up for question. Regardless of your choosing1, it’s where true healing begins. It’s the center where your spirit23 sovereigns over all the layers of your self, the impartial atom of your very being. That moment you feel empty inside? That’s when you forget the soul’s existence, after too much complying, complaining, and compromising. As your vessel undergoes the copious operations you let it through, the light within you wanes and wrinkles and wastes away. It vanishes, even, when you neglect it long enough.

So what’s a girl to do from hereon?

Be true to your soul, first and foremost, always. Walk in the spirit4, and it will protect you from all forms of dis-ease.

Guard your heart5, keep it safe, avoid toxins from penetrating6, and pace yourself7 accordingly, as your life depends on it.

Fortify your bones, because you don’t wanna become deformed8.

Discipline your flesh9. You want to stay focused and keep yourself upright for good10.

Protect your skin. It’s the only channel your light permeates through11.


  1. Luke 13:3 []
  2. Genesis 1:26-27 []
  3. John 10:34 []
  4. Galatians 5:16-18 []
  5. Proverbs 4:23-27 []
  6. 1 Thessalonians 4:3 []
  7. Proverbs 3:6 []
  8. Levicitus 21:18-23 []
  9. 1 Thessalonians 4:4 []
  10. 1 Corinthians 9:25-27 []
  11. Matthew 5:14-16 []
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He gets me.


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Different people don’t always get along, much less opposites (at least, if we’re in it for the long haul). But differences aside, I think one of the reasons why people constantly argue is because we tend to want people to look into our circumstances more than we do assert our own perspective on the matter. We think that others get it from our viewpoint, but truth is, no two individuals see things the same way. We especially expect or assume this level of understanding from the people we believe know us best, and sometimes, these “Why don’t you get it?!” kind of arguments can leave a permanent scar.

If we stop for a minute and pull back to see things from the omniscient perspective, we’ll see how puny our own ego really is. It begs for your constant attention, its desires are fleeting. You can’t endow your full and complete trust into something so volatile. It’s so tiny and so vulnerable that it knows, it has to present itself as one ginormous vessel of pride. It pushes others around it to attend to its needs immediately, and while it’s capable, it’s not in its nature to become the first to shimmy out of its pride. It would go lengths to prevent others from seeing its small nature in all its nakedness1.

Now the billion-dollar question is, why not you be the first? Contrary to logic, breaking out of your giant vessel reduces neither you nor your existence. You’re just laying yourself bare – fully your small self and completely with your fragile thoughts and porcelain feelings. This way, people can see right through your soul. And this way, you don’t have to put the pressure on those who know you best to empathize with you. Stripped off your armors, it’s easier for you to get to the heart of one another2 without leaving scars, and that’s a good thing in His eyes3.


  1. Hebrews 4:13 []
  2. because of the begotten Son, who covers for you []
  3. Colossians 1:22 []
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You’re impatient, hard-headed, and easily angered.


And you know it. People have been telling you all their life. Some of your relationships went downhill in the first place because you’re like that. You should stop being that way, they yelled. You shouldn’t take things too seriously, or too personally. My personal favorite: Why are you so sensitive?!

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And so it goes. Every thought that comes in your way, you begin to suppress. Every emotion, you’re forced to repress before you even process. And every feeling, even the fleeting ones, is like a fatal flaw that forces you to reprogram your nature without a decent backup. No valuable memory to save, no memory whatsoever. The longer this goes on, the faster you go on reformatting mode on autopilot.

And so …

You are nothing, you said to the mirror.

You are nothing, you shouted at it.

You are nothing, you cried.

“If I have to live like a machine, I’d rather not live,” you finished.

Understand this: You are confusing prominence with significance. You might be a little “different” from others, but that doesn’t mean you’re useless, worthless, and/or are doomed to live a meaningless life1. Just because everybody prefers to see a light, outgoing, extraverted little young lady doesn’t mean you should also appear that way. Just because by now you have declared “I am no-thing” all too many mornings in the mirror doesn’t mean you’re actually no-thing, nor does it ever going to make you one. Why? Because you didn’t make you, and this is not the end, and for as long as it’s not that time of your life yet, like it or not, the filmmaker is still running the script.

Fact that you’re casted in the first place is not an accident. As long as you came out of a womb and still alive and breathing, you have a role to play. It’s some-thing, but it’s not no-thing. It may be a lead role or it may not, but you’re there to help move the story forward, to create history, to play a part that ultimately serves a bigger purpose, some-thing much bigger than you.

Even if you can’t see what’s the whole point of having you around, you must remain in the film2. You can’t be replaced. After all, you’re “different”, and so you’re the only one that fits that particular role in that particular scene in the film. The only difference between films and real life is that one was made for multiple audiences (a.k.a. everybody) whereas the latter was made for an audience of One.

Even if there hasn’t been any good come out of your “differences” yet, without them, you won’t be you. It’s like asking Jennifer Lawrence to play Katniss in real life – you wouldn’t want to see her brooding in front of the camera all the time, would you?

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  1. 1 Corinthians 1:28 []
  2. 2 Corinthians 4:8-10 []