3 small apricots
2 extra dark chocolate Lindt balls
1 whole avocado
1 sweet potato
cheesy spicy barley
2 dark chocolate Lindt balls
WATER: 2 liters + innumerable little cups of green tea and other teas
- My mood greatly improves after this morning’s run, very different from the usual cloudy and sleepy feeling in the afternoon. I also have even less appetite and clearer head – it’s easier for me to think. Even though I ran very little, I walked a lot on my way back home, more than 30 minutes or so. That’s when my mind starts to relax, and craved for an avocado.
- I have too much fruit cravings. I want watermelons right now…
- Exactly 33 days from now, I’m going home forever. I packed my pumps and heels today into a large cardboard box, leaving my flats and running shoes on my hallway to wear for the remaining days from today. Why is it always 33 days? One reason I’m doing this accountability practice, this jotting-down-all-things-I-stuff-into-my-mouth was to get in shape before I go home. I’m more aware of what I put in and when I put it in to my mouth. I don’t eat after 5 pm, but there were some days that I did, but very little. And I have big meals early in the morning. Then I realized… all the food I stuffed into my mouth other than suppressing hunger are just feelings of homesickness – a.k.a. emotional eating. Well, I have a lot of blockbuster movies that everybody has watched and I haven’t because I want to watch it with my boyfriend. Imagine holding your pee for 2 hours. That’s homesick.
- I’m glad I ran this morning. Again, it lifts my spirits a ton. And I should be able to sleep tighter tonight. My muscles are so much relaxed from the previous days, especially after that many reps of squats throughout the day. I want to run again this coming Thursday morning. We’ll see. I know I can do it (run farther, get in shape on time, be stronger, exercise confidence).