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Broken home



Been a year;
Missing homelands.
The end is near,
Where is my home?


Always in transit;
Lived a third of 21 years
in the airport.
When is my next flight?


The whole of me
builds castles among clouds.
Bits and pieces, I have


Why am I here
and also there?


The skies open
I am just
lost in the unbroken.


My home is everywhere, nowhere.
How do I get there?


No, I’m not mad
I’m just a nomad.
A soul left displaced.
What is this place?


“Welcome to Jakarta,”
said the attendant. “Goodbye!”
I stop running
My castle left unfinished
yet again.


If this is my home,
Who’s coming?
And who’s going to be there?





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A pleasant surprise



It’s dark.


My cherry-red lips withstand this cold
biting autumn leaves,
as the crimson sky leaves the day old.


One, two, three… Twelve.
The petals shy, never made love;
“Keep away from direct sunlight,” labelled itself.


Who art thou?
Why do you care?
“You’ll never know,”
it says, from: Someone Far, Far Away
to my dismay.


What is this?
What is this feeling?


I bit my lip
and count to twelve
then drift myself off to sleep.


In my dreams
as though it seems
My anonymous Valentine is way, way
ahead, somewhere miles away, faraway


in the future:
Who am I?
I feel so close, yet
Where is my love?
You are a mystery.


Springing forward
It’s spring.


I stop questioning love next morning
And the lovely new day brings
sunlit roses in my heart now blooming.




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Never get plastic surgery. Instead, get some exercise to change your plasticity.


February 2011



I’ve just started reading up my first chapter readings for the week for my Psychology class. The next class is all about the brain, its cells, its functions, and the magical mysteries of the mind. But we’ll get into that next week, I guess.

Yesterday, I posted about the increased size of your hippocampus and an improved overall health and well-being. I edited it quite a bit earlier, so that you can understand better about building an aerobic base on a consistent basis and what it can do to your brain.

I’m fascinated about the way we can learn to control our minds for positive changes to our internal and external environments.

Okay, just call me a geek.

I read magazines for breakfast, read novels for lunch, and textbooks for dinner. In-between meals, I surf the net reading articles from my iPad. I know. It’s crazy, but you can’t help imagining the things you read all day long. Indeed, it sparks my imaginations. That’s what I love about digesting the written word one letter at a time.

You see, since regular aerobic activity has been repeatedly proven to increase the size of your hippocampus, I’ve found even more findings about it.

If you’re old, between ages 55 and 80, and your memory is deteriorating, you cannot blame your nonexercise habits during your middle age, because those times are gone, and time is the only thing you cannot reverse. You can only change your biological clock through aging.

This research shows that any type of exercise, and I mean any, not just aerobic or just anaerobic, shows an increase in the size of hippocampus over time. In this case, it’s about a year. So if you think about it, if you start building your aerobic base as early as in your 20s, you’ll delay memory loss even longer.

In theory, you can slow down the inevitable cost of aging: Hippocampal volume loss, which translates to loss of short and long-term memory functions – which is why it’s never too late to start exercising.

If you’re reading this, you can start moving right at this very second, no matter how old you are. “Starting an exercise regimen later in life is not futile for either enhancing cognition or augmenting brain volume,” wrote the researchers of the University of Pittsburgh, the University of Illinois, Rice University, and the Ohio State University on the journal Proceedings of the National Academy of Sciences.

Since my last post wasn’t as clear as it should be, let’s go into further detail, with reference to HealthGuidance for the obvious benefits of regular exercise.


Hormonal activities

As I’ve mentioned in my previous post, as soon as you move, your glands immediately releases a number of hormones that control your physiological needs and functions.

Now I finally learned that whenever I’m having my ‘high’, like as if I’m having my state of trance, a euphoric mind and reaching my runner;s high, or thinking that I’m having orgasm on the spot – it’s the endorphins that are responsible for how I felt. It’s amazing how I can go in to such a manic state without any dose of drugs, such as marijuana and ecstasy.

I guess higher BPM, melodic and vocal dance music, plus unlimited liters of water, are my drugs.

Cognitive abilities

Other than feeling super good, you can alsoincrease your ‘fluid intelligence’, and, with regularity, exercise can increase your IQ. HealthGuidance defined ‘fluid intelligence’ as intelligence that doesn’t require previous knowledge. So it’s basically your short-term memory, like whenever you’re trying to remember the name of the girl you saw across the bar or calculating your bills in your head. This not only saves time, but also helps you little boys in skirt-chasing.

And all the hype about bulking up your hippocampal volume, it all deals with exercising control of the brain, just like controlling the movements of your muscles. They say that if you don’t lose it, you lose it. This principle also applies for training your brain. With regular exercise, you are not only inducing cell growth in your body, but also new neurons in your brain. “By repeatedly training a movement you increase the neuronal networks involved and so grow that area of the brain,” explains HealthGuidance.

This new phenomenon in neuroscience, of the ways you can literally change your brain psychologically and physiologically, is called brain plasticity, or neuroplasticity.

We’ll get more into that once my Psychology class explores the topic more in-depth.

But until then, I learned that you can literally brainwash yourself the natural way through exercise, which is, of course, the positive kind.